I felt like blogging today so here are my heart thoughts:
My pastor touched my life today and doesn’t even know it. I read his twitter and it said: “The road to perfection is always under construction”
WOW. How true. I think perfection is seeing flaws and loving them, and that my friend will ALWAYS be a constant lesson.
I was looking at Krista’s blog, and I heard this man with no arms and legs say if I fall it should be IMPOSSIBLE for me to get back up, but it’s now. If I try 100 times and fail, and I give up, will I ever get back up? No. But if I fail I try again, and again and again, but it’s not the end. I find the strength to get back up. And guess what……..he worked it till he got up! No arms, no legs. He put his head down and pushed.
How uncanny is that? Sometimes you have to be down to get back up, put our heads down, to get back up. I have thought a lot in the last week and a half or so of the words “reflection” and “restoration.”
Reflection: I am NOT by any means a person that claims to understand physics but, I like things that get my attention haha and when I read about reflection this is what I learned: The law of reflection simply states that the angle of reflection always equals the angle of incidence. Basically it’s the return of light, heat, sound, etc., after striking a surface. What is bounced of us metaphorically that is returned? The quote “Be the change you want to see in the world” applies here. Let me work within myself to see the things I want to come back, the things I want to “reflect.”
Restoration: Life is a battlefield sometimes and through the battle, it’s true, you get wounds, and some leave scars. Some heal and fade and you would never know they were there or even happened. Restoration means a return of something to a former, original, normal, or unimpaired condition. But what if……what if it will never be “the same” I think then the meaning is a renewal or a revival, to be what it was in a sense but meant to be changed.
It’s your life, what you going to do? The world is watching you. Every day, the choices you make, say what you are and who your heart beats for, it’s an open door. It’s YOUR life!
Are you who you always said you would be?
I want to be. God help me to be!
As always: make my brokenness beautiful.
Love,
Izzi
Friday, October 2, 2009
Monday, June 22, 2009
Just a few thoughts:
I’m different. I know this, but it’s only sometimes that I feel badly for it. I march to the beat of a different drum. Chances are that when I look at something, I will see if differently than anyone else. I am loyal, sensitive, and passionate. I love people for who they are, not who’ve they’ve been or who they will be. I’m not afraid of a lot in life but I will run for my life when I see a bee, wasp, or june bug within 30 feet of me. If you are in my life, I will give you unconditional love but a huge fault of mine is accepting it, but I cherish it more than anything.
I love the feeling of Christmas time. I don’t know if it’s because people are more conscious of giving and I think our world needs more of it or if it’s the warm feeling of spending time with people you love, or if it’s that people seem to be a tad more conscious that it’s the basic things in life that make us happy.
A couple days ago I’m sitting at my desk, minding my own business and all of a sudden, out of thin air I hear: hello? It was faint so I thought I was hearing things but then a couple seconds later I hear a little louder hello??? So I respond: hello?? Here I am thinking someone from thin air is talking to me, HELLO I said YES???? Just when I was about to hit my knees because I thought it was a heavenly voice, she said this is Susan with medo pharmacy………Michelle had walked away from a call she put on hold and it was on speaker. I could have choked her, but I still love Birdie. : )
I was listening to a sermon this morning and lately I’ve been thinking about how much better life would be if we applied spiritual things to loving the people in life. We know this already but it really hit me personally this morning.
“Anything worth having is worth investing in. If you don’t invest in it you’re implying it’s not worth having.” This is true with people, jobs, animals, anything really. If you want it and it’s worth it……invest in it. The things that cost the most but are priceless are time, effort and true, unconditional love.
My daily devotion this morning was on change and I want to share it:
Subject to change...
The perfect job with an ideal package comes your way. You are ecstatic and delighted. The ideal mate, who loves you more than you could imagine, becomes your spouse. You are thrilled and feel complete. A luxurious home in the most perfect neighborhood becomes yours. You are happy and glad. It is all good, but subject to change.
The beautiful car that you have been eye-balling is approved for you. You are delighted and excited. Your children are doing well and the bills are paid. Now you are pleased and at ease. You are honored for your hard work and given a promotion on your job, and now you are content and comfortable. It is all good, but subject to change.
So what happens when…?You lose your perfect job, and your ideal spouse leaves you broke and penniless. You lose the perfect home and all the contents. Your beautiful car breaks down and you cannot fix it. Your well-behaved children are gone, and they think you’re a disappointment. What happens now?
No one is looking up at you, only down at you. No one is thinking highly of you, only criticizing you. No one is encouraging you, only trying to discourage you. You don’t know where you will sleep tonight, and you don’t know what you will eat tomorrow. Your past seems so far behind; it’s as though it were a dream and not real. Your present seems so useless and uneventful as though there were no hope. Your future seems bleak, because you cannot see or think past the moment in which you are now living.So what happens now?
Now you look for that which is not subject to change…..“For I am the Lord, I do not change…” Malachi 3:6 “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever.” Hebrews 13:8
Now you put your trust in God; your focus on Christ; your mind on the Lord and your belief in the Word. Now you stand on God’s Word and you walk in His principles. Now you find that what you had was temporal, but what you have now is eternal. If you want real joy and real peace; if you want real success and a real future then grab hold of the Truth.
Now this is joy…Real joy has nothing to do with your outward circumstances, but has everything to do with your inward condition and position in Christ.
Stop putting your trust in those things which are subject to change. Now put your trust in the One who never changes, but is able to change everyone and everything!
“My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.” James 1:2-4 NKJV
So I guess I say all that to say this: I am going to try to live my life to love as you’ve never seen, even if that comes at the cost of hurt, and a broken heart, at least those scars left will be a symbol that I gave it my all. Live life for what you have right now, for the “good things” in life, what you cherish the most. Make decisions on how it will affect the people you love the most, and I think we will all make better choices.
Love you all. : )
Izzi-Beth : )
I love the feeling of Christmas time. I don’t know if it’s because people are more conscious of giving and I think our world needs more of it or if it’s the warm feeling of spending time with people you love, or if it’s that people seem to be a tad more conscious that it’s the basic things in life that make us happy.
A couple days ago I’m sitting at my desk, minding my own business and all of a sudden, out of thin air I hear: hello? It was faint so I thought I was hearing things but then a couple seconds later I hear a little louder hello??? So I respond: hello?? Here I am thinking someone from thin air is talking to me, HELLO I said YES???? Just when I was about to hit my knees because I thought it was a heavenly voice, she said this is Susan with medo pharmacy………Michelle had walked away from a call she put on hold and it was on speaker. I could have choked her, but I still love Birdie. : )
I was listening to a sermon this morning and lately I’ve been thinking about how much better life would be if we applied spiritual things to loving the people in life. We know this already but it really hit me personally this morning.
“Anything worth having is worth investing in. If you don’t invest in it you’re implying it’s not worth having.” This is true with people, jobs, animals, anything really. If you want it and it’s worth it……invest in it. The things that cost the most but are priceless are time, effort and true, unconditional love.
My daily devotion this morning was on change and I want to share it:
Subject to change...
The perfect job with an ideal package comes your way. You are ecstatic and delighted. The ideal mate, who loves you more than you could imagine, becomes your spouse. You are thrilled and feel complete. A luxurious home in the most perfect neighborhood becomes yours. You are happy and glad. It is all good, but subject to change.
The beautiful car that you have been eye-balling is approved for you. You are delighted and excited. Your children are doing well and the bills are paid. Now you are pleased and at ease. You are honored for your hard work and given a promotion on your job, and now you are content and comfortable. It is all good, but subject to change.
So what happens when…?You lose your perfect job, and your ideal spouse leaves you broke and penniless. You lose the perfect home and all the contents. Your beautiful car breaks down and you cannot fix it. Your well-behaved children are gone, and they think you’re a disappointment. What happens now?
No one is looking up at you, only down at you. No one is thinking highly of you, only criticizing you. No one is encouraging you, only trying to discourage you. You don’t know where you will sleep tonight, and you don’t know what you will eat tomorrow. Your past seems so far behind; it’s as though it were a dream and not real. Your present seems so useless and uneventful as though there were no hope. Your future seems bleak, because you cannot see or think past the moment in which you are now living.So what happens now?
Now you look for that which is not subject to change…..“For I am the Lord, I do not change…” Malachi 3:6 “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever.” Hebrews 13:8
Now you put your trust in God; your focus on Christ; your mind on the Lord and your belief in the Word. Now you stand on God’s Word and you walk in His principles. Now you find that what you had was temporal, but what you have now is eternal. If you want real joy and real peace; if you want real success and a real future then grab hold of the Truth.
Now this is joy…Real joy has nothing to do with your outward circumstances, but has everything to do with your inward condition and position in Christ.
Stop putting your trust in those things which are subject to change. Now put your trust in the One who never changes, but is able to change everyone and everything!
“My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.” James 1:2-4 NKJV
So I guess I say all that to say this: I am going to try to live my life to love as you’ve never seen, even if that comes at the cost of hurt, and a broken heart, at least those scars left will be a symbol that I gave it my all. Live life for what you have right now, for the “good things” in life, what you cherish the most. Make decisions on how it will affect the people you love the most, and I think we will all make better choices.
Love you all. : )
Izzi-Beth : )
Monday, April 27, 2009
I feel like I have a million thoughts to blog. I never know who really reads this....maybe no one, maybe everyone but I will dive right in:
One miscellaneous thought I have today: Before sex and the city there was Golden girls. I STILL love this show. I catch it on re-runs everytime I can. Estelle Getty, the spicy mouth momma is gone too. :( This only leaves two girls still kickin; Rue McClanahan and Betty White. :(
Another thought, this one OUT RAGES me: the craigslist killer. OMG how DARE he have the "guts" to plead not guilty first of all. SECOND of all what the HECK kind of "reason" is it to kill someone because you "want to know what it feels like?!?!?" Heffers, let me tell you something, I would have done been in prison several times if I acted on that principle. LORD HAVE MERCY!!! And why does he remind me of Jeffrey Dahmer??? *shudders*More later......lunch is ova rova! ;)
Izzi
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Not just for beatuty......
Girls, weaves are not just for beauty…protect yourself!! haha
February 19, 2009
KANSAS CITY, MO - Other than having a bit of a headache, a Kansas City woman is uninjured after a bullet fired at her ended up tangled in her hair weave.Police said the 20-year-old woman was in a convenience store parking lot late Wednesday when a man flagged her down and told her that her ex-boyfriend still loved her. She replied, "Well I don't love him," then heard gunshots.She said she looked behind the vehicle and saw her ex-boyfriend firing a handgun at her. She stomped her accelerator and fled, then turned into another parking lot and called police. She told officers she recently had ended an eight-month relationship with the suspect.Police arrested the ex-boyfriend and his friend in a car.
February 19, 2009
KANSAS CITY, MO - Other than having a bit of a headache, a Kansas City woman is uninjured after a bullet fired at her ended up tangled in her hair weave.Police said the 20-year-old woman was in a convenience store parking lot late Wednesday when a man flagged her down and told her that her ex-boyfriend still loved her. She replied, "Well I don't love him," then heard gunshots.She said she looked behind the vehicle and saw her ex-boyfriend firing a handgun at her. She stomped her accelerator and fled, then turned into another parking lot and called police. She told officers she recently had ended an eight-month relationship with the suspect.Police arrested the ex-boyfriend and his friend in a car.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Quote of the day.....
This rings so true. I will write more later.....
“If you don’t risk anything you risk even more.” - Erica Jong
Love,
Iz
“If you don’t risk anything you risk even more.” - Erica Jong
Love,
Iz
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Thought for the day....
I needed this today. Thank you for being in my life, I just wanted to share this. After opening up, people have started opening up to me and I realized that there are SO many people going through things right now. I am so full of thoughts for my friends and family. I love you so much, you make my life complete because you are what I live for.
“Be life long or short, its completeness depends on what it is lived for.” - David Starr Jordan
Love,
Iz
“Be life long or short, its completeness depends on what it is lived for.” - David Starr Jordan
Love,
Iz
Friday, February 13, 2009
Heavy moment......
I am sad. I’m not talking just sad, I’m talking lucky charms, horses, and puppy dogs can’t even cheer me up. I am so broken. This is only the 3rd time in my life I have been this broken. That sad.
I am angry as well. Angry that people don’t think about how their actions will affect others. How they bring themselves into people’s lives and when they walk out of yours, they walk out of your family and friends as well, and don’t bother to be accountable for their actions. You put yourself in that position; the LEAST you could do is answer a phone call for the purpose of respect.
Why do people say empty words? Why do people say things they don’t mean, hoping if they say them they will feel that way? Why do people say things because it’s the heat of the moment, and how can they not realize that they are still empty words? Am I the only person left that says what I mean, and means what I say? I know I am not perfect and I still say things I don’t mean out of anger or hurt, but I try as quickly as possible to rectify that moment.
Is it possible for two people to feel the same way or does one always like/love the other more for it to work? Writing is therapy for me, so bear with me. It might not all make sense but this is how I work things out in my mind. This is not just coming from things in the last few weeks; it’s in part things I have been dealing with for the last 2 years. I guess when you partially heal or just keep trucking, it catches up with you at some point, or maybe the healing process just takes longer than you think with some things and you just think you are over them, so when those healing moments come, you realize, wow, I am still healing.
Don’t get me wrong, I have my strong moments where I feel good. Last night was hard. This morning was hard. I feel good right now.
I know if a person walks away from the best thing they will ever have, they will always compare what they had with that person to anyone they will have from there on. The important things in life are the people that are there for you when your heart is so crushed that the word crushed doesn’t even explain how your heart feels. Your heart hurts so bad, that your guts hurt. The kind of hurt that you have'nt eaten in 2 days because the thought of food makes you sick. Not because of how much you cared for that person but because you gave them the trust they asked for and they walked away from it. Simply put: you trusted them, and they betrayed that trust.
Even though Tim might not know this, I read his blog. haha. If he reads this it will probably shock him. He makes me realize the important things in life. This is a quote from a devotion that really reached my heart “It is easy for people to follow the money, the blessing, the easy way, but the presence of God often leads us through the depths of situations to reveal the power of the Lord into our lives. It is of utmost importance for our ear to be tuned to the moving of the presence of God so we can follow wherever it leads.” God is dealing with me, and I love it, but it’s NOT easy. Maybe this is a part of it. I want to be available. I want the true anointing, the kind that can’t be mistaken, imitated, the pure anointing.
God Help me, please. Make my brokenness beautiful.
All my love and heart,
Izzi
I am angry as well. Angry that people don’t think about how their actions will affect others. How they bring themselves into people’s lives and when they walk out of yours, they walk out of your family and friends as well, and don’t bother to be accountable for their actions. You put yourself in that position; the LEAST you could do is answer a phone call for the purpose of respect.
Why do people say empty words? Why do people say things they don’t mean, hoping if they say them they will feel that way? Why do people say things because it’s the heat of the moment, and how can they not realize that they are still empty words? Am I the only person left that says what I mean, and means what I say? I know I am not perfect and I still say things I don’t mean out of anger or hurt, but I try as quickly as possible to rectify that moment.
Is it possible for two people to feel the same way or does one always like/love the other more for it to work? Writing is therapy for me, so bear with me. It might not all make sense but this is how I work things out in my mind. This is not just coming from things in the last few weeks; it’s in part things I have been dealing with for the last 2 years. I guess when you partially heal or just keep trucking, it catches up with you at some point, or maybe the healing process just takes longer than you think with some things and you just think you are over them, so when those healing moments come, you realize, wow, I am still healing.
Don’t get me wrong, I have my strong moments where I feel good. Last night was hard. This morning was hard. I feel good right now.
I know if a person walks away from the best thing they will ever have, they will always compare what they had with that person to anyone they will have from there on. The important things in life are the people that are there for you when your heart is so crushed that the word crushed doesn’t even explain how your heart feels. Your heart hurts so bad, that your guts hurt. The kind of hurt that you have'nt eaten in 2 days because the thought of food makes you sick. Not because of how much you cared for that person but because you gave them the trust they asked for and they walked away from it. Simply put: you trusted them, and they betrayed that trust.
Even though Tim might not know this, I read his blog. haha. If he reads this it will probably shock him. He makes me realize the important things in life. This is a quote from a devotion that really reached my heart “It is easy for people to follow the money, the blessing, the easy way, but the presence of God often leads us through the depths of situations to reveal the power of the Lord into our lives. It is of utmost importance for our ear to be tuned to the moving of the presence of God so we can follow wherever it leads.” God is dealing with me, and I love it, but it’s NOT easy. Maybe this is a part of it. I want to be available. I want the true anointing, the kind that can’t be mistaken, imitated, the pure anointing.
God Help me, please. Make my brokenness beautiful.
All my love and heart,
Izzi
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